Saturday, March 12, 2005

So much on my mind

I've got so much on my mind... I don't even know where to start.

First I'll go with church tomorrow I think... I'm ready for DEAF... I hope. I started out on one track and then ended up somewhere completely different. I've got to figure out a better way to DO ministry. I feel like there's so much ME involved that I don't know what's me and what's GOD. I take that back... it's all God. However, I need to become a better listener. How's that?

As for big church, hearing church... I got the notes tonight, even though I'm not interpreting tomorrow. Wow. I feel so incredibly blessed to listen to Pastor Burt preach. This man knows his stuff and he knows where his people are--at least me... he preaches about me every week! LOL It's incredible.

Friends - trying to get together with the peeps here in town... Tonight was actually a pizza thing for this one girl--I kind of know her, she's come to our small group a few times, but I always feel so intrusive if I don't really know the person. Yeah, I know it's a problem I have. I'm working on it. However, it didn't really matter if I wanted to go or not... I was still working on tomorrow's stuff when everyone got together for pizza (and the serious lack of a shower today didn't help things any!). Hopefully some of us will be able to get together tomorrow. I've spent a lot more time with my dad and fam lately, but now I have this... deep... I don't know what it is... I just really need social relationships. And I love everyone here--I just want to continue to get to know them!!! God created us as social creatures--it's the way we're supposed to be!

Books - I've been reading a lot lately, and I love it. Big time... I just finished tuesdays with Morrie. Some of you may remember me seeing the movie awhile ago... the book has quickly risen to my must read list. it's by Mich Albom--go out and get it! Right now I'm in the middle of Joshua. It's decent. I've got about 5 more here and 8 waiting at the library. I'll pick them up on monday I think.

This is nothing that I wanted to write about. But it's a tiny portion of my brain.
I think I'm going to go read for a little bit. And journal. PB talks about getting specific. Johnne's always told me to get specific... and I mean in prayers, in hopes, in plans... I've got a few things I desperately need to get in order in my life and that means I need to get specific.
Adios for now.

1 comment:

Jenni said...

HELLO!!!! Do you reMEMber Phillipps? Do you recall the social isolation? You didn't hang out with anyone outside our 'Room'. It was killing you and you even knew it at the time. I think that, minus the enmeshed relationships we all had going on, this is kind of similar. You JUST NEED PEOPLE. Heck, we all do.