OK, I don't blog about this often because I don't feel like this is something that needs to be brought up routinely. However, I felt hit by this tonight, and I haven't blogged in awhile, so... Here goes.
Every time I hear from God, or I am processing what was said at church, or just have questions that need answered, etc., I feel so confronted by the fact that I don't have someone to share it all with. Of course I share with friends, and am SO thankful for them. :) For instance, tonight I chatted with a few over salad and pizza and a going-silly dog. I love that. But when I come home... when I'm faced with me and God, and that's it... I really wish I had another human voice who know me better than anyone else to bounce things off of. It's really, really lonely without that.
Showing posts with label Singleness. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Singleness. Show all posts
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Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Happy Tuesday
It's freezing here. I can't believe how cold I am. After this, I think I have an email to write and then I'm going to go to bed to read and turn on the electric blanket. MAN. I'm COLD!
I can't believe it's the 10th. 10 days till 30... This is actually the first year in a long time I'm looking FORWARD to my birthday. It's kind of surprising. But... once I turn 30... that's just... strange. I mean, I've complained for the last DECADE that people think that because I look like I'm TWELVE, I'm not capable. Now at least I'll be able to say "I'm thirty" and have perhaps a TINY bit more credibility. But... it just hit me the other day... I'm happy with my life, I am. I just...wanted more by this point. So that's hard to take. And, to be honest, it's hard for me to BE completely honest on this blog because most of you are married and have no idea what it feels like to be staring that new decade in the face wondering if God's promises are really true for marriage and family. (Please no trite answers to that statement--I've heard it all before and have no desire to hear it again.) I trust God. It's just... Well, here - I'll pose a question to you all:
A pastoral team prays about a "word for the year" and gets something that, straight from Scripture, gives hope to the congregation. The believers at that church begin to pray that God would move in their lives--and, feeling led by God, they write down their prayers for the year... Things they truly feel like God is going to accomplish in their lives. They focus on prayer and reading the Word, truly seeking after God's heart in their lives. Story after story come in... miraculous healings, people getting out of debt, families reunited, hearts mended and brought closer to their Savior. And yet... though led by God to pray specifics for that year... some people do NOT see these miraculous things happen. They are left empty handed--YES, closer to Jesus (and yes, that's the point). But... I suppose the question is... why do SOME people have their prayers answered and OTHERS don't? It's the question of the ages, isn't it?
Tonight I completed a household task... in triumph! ;) My kitties... rascals they are... they like to open up cupboards. That means that they try to go in and out and in and out of my 3 cupboards in my bathroom. At night. When I'm sleeping. (Imagine major GRRRRness at 2 am.) Last week I bought some latches (the kind you use for kids). I just installed them tonight. :) the cats just stared at me... four golden orbs crying "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!" Muahahahahhaaaa... let's see how far they get TONIGHT. :)
I can't believe it's the 10th. 10 days till 30... This is actually the first year in a long time I'm looking FORWARD to my birthday. It's kind of surprising. But... once I turn 30... that's just... strange. I mean, I've complained for the last DECADE that people think that because I look like I'm TWELVE, I'm not capable. Now at least I'll be able to say "I'm thirty" and have perhaps a TINY bit more credibility. But... it just hit me the other day... I'm happy with my life, I am. I just...wanted more by this point. So that's hard to take. And, to be honest, it's hard for me to BE completely honest on this blog because most of you are married and have no idea what it feels like to be staring that new decade in the face wondering if God's promises are really true for marriage and family. (Please no trite answers to that statement--I've heard it all before and have no desire to hear it again.) I trust God. It's just... Well, here - I'll pose a question to you all:
A pastoral team prays about a "word for the year" and gets something that, straight from Scripture, gives hope to the congregation. The believers at that church begin to pray that God would move in their lives--and, feeling led by God, they write down their prayers for the year... Things they truly feel like God is going to accomplish in their lives. They focus on prayer and reading the Word, truly seeking after God's heart in their lives. Story after story come in... miraculous healings, people getting out of debt, families reunited, hearts mended and brought closer to their Savior. And yet... though led by God to pray specifics for that year... some people do NOT see these miraculous things happen. They are left empty handed--YES, closer to Jesus (and yes, that's the point). But... I suppose the question is... why do SOME people have their prayers answered and OTHERS don't? It's the question of the ages, isn't it?
Tonight I completed a household task... in triumph! ;) My kitties... rascals they are... they like to open up cupboards. That means that they try to go in and out and in and out of my 3 cupboards in my bathroom. At night. When I'm sleeping. (Imagine major GRRRRness at 2 am.) Last week I bought some latches (the kind you use for kids). I just installed them tonight. :) the cats just stared at me... four golden orbs crying "NOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!" Muahahahahhaaaa... let's see how far they get TONIGHT. :)
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
Just a note...
Hi everyone... Comment here to say hi... there's not a ton of you around these days. Do you all like my new layout? I love it. :) Make sure you click on the picture of Maria on the top right... it's worth it.
I've been in the beginning of the Bible lately. Currently in Leviticus. Torn between going completely nuts with how many sacrifce options there are and having to read through them all, and... the fact that even before grace was offered freely through Jesus Christ... God, perfection Himself, allowed ways for His people to come to Him. That pretty much blows me away.
I just finished a book called Home To Holly Springs. It was really sweet, I liked it. I'm going to look up the series that the main character came out of and read those. But first I have to finish Anna Karenina - it's on my 30 List.
Speaking of my 30 List... I'm supposed to go on a date... sigh... I put it on there hoping... but at this point, I've got 16 days left. It makes me sad... I just don't know single men... and the older I get, the more married they get. Where ARE the good, single, Christian, men? I've come to suspect that they don't exist anymore... I certainly haven't seen any lately. In that book I just mentioned, the main character quoted someone... basically, the person said... Two people plus two people equals four people. but if you double one person... you get FAR more than just two people... you get an exponential amount of LIFE. I'm just looking for one. That's all. And it's so FREAKING frustrating.
Yikes, it's almost 10. bedtime.
I've been in the beginning of the Bible lately. Currently in Leviticus. Torn between going completely nuts with how many sacrifce options there are and having to read through them all, and... the fact that even before grace was offered freely through Jesus Christ... God, perfection Himself, allowed ways for His people to come to Him. That pretty much blows me away.
I just finished a book called Home To Holly Springs. It was really sweet, I liked it. I'm going to look up the series that the main character came out of and read those. But first I have to finish Anna Karenina - it's on my 30 List.
Speaking of my 30 List... I'm supposed to go on a date... sigh... I put it on there hoping... but at this point, I've got 16 days left. It makes me sad... I just don't know single men... and the older I get, the more married they get. Where ARE the good, single, Christian, men? I've come to suspect that they don't exist anymore... I certainly haven't seen any lately. In that book I just mentioned, the main character quoted someone... basically, the person said... Two people plus two people equals four people. but if you double one person... you get FAR more than just two people... you get an exponential amount of LIFE. I'm just looking for one. That's all. And it's so FREAKING frustrating.
Yikes, it's almost 10. bedtime.
Thursday, March 01, 2007
The Singles Tirade
OK, maybe not a tirade. I just... I just get so frustrated that everything in life is dedicated to having "that special someone." What about the rest of us?
More than half of Americans aren't married. Don't we count for something?
More than half of Americans aren't married. Don't we count for something?
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