OK, so I don't normally blog much about work... but I'm in charge of a fairly exciting project these days... We're developing standards for sign language interpreters in Washington Courts. It's pretty exciting, pretty high profile, and will make quite an impact on the quality of services in our state.

Still in the Bible daily... It's been over a year and half now... completely unbelievable. God has SERIOUSLY gotten me through tough times (brain cancer, anyone?) and good times, too. I'm amazed at the stuff I've learned. Here... let me share about one of the psalms... a friend asked me what I'd been reading and this was my response.

Psalm 13

For the director of music. A psalm of David.

¹ How long, O LORD ? Will you forget me forever?
How long will you hide your face from me? ² How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
and every day have sorrow in my heart?
How long will my enemy triumph over me?
³ Look on me and answer, O LORD my God.
Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death;
⁴ my enemy will say, "I have overcome him,"
and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
⁵ But I trust in your unfailing love;
my heart rejoices in your salvation.
⁶ I will sing to the LORD,
for he has been good to me.

So I read this and was really intrigued. David's freaking out. Seriously - God is S.I.L.E.N.T. He's depressed, scared, running for his life. People want to kill him. He's crying out in anguish to God. BUT. But he trusts in his love and salvation. He sings to God "for he has been good to me." You have to say, "But DAVID - you just said he left you alone! How can he be ignoring you AND be good to you?! and look at your contradiction here: Every day you have sorrow in your heart AND your heart rejoices in God's salvation? WHA????"

And then it kind of hits you (me at least). Oh. It's ok to feel far away and despairing and STILL know the love of God. You don't have to FEEL His love to KNOW it. You just trust it and KNOW that He is God.