Wednesday, September 07, 2005

Sick and more...

I've been sick for 3 days now. I'll probably head back to work tomorrow. I know it makes me grumpy. BUT I WANT OUT!!!!!!

I put an offer on a place yesterday and didn't get it. It wasn't perfect but it was somewhere to start - PLEASE Lord, I CANNOT handle this much longer. Because of my living situation, I feel like I'm becoming angrier and crabbier all the time. I just can't get out. Everything I see, everything I hear makes me want to crawl out of my skin and just leave - leave to live in my car, a studio apartment, anything else.

I AM AN ADULT. PLEASE LET ME BE ONE!

4 comments:

Slicer said...

Sorry to read that you've been sick. And that you didn't get the condo. Something better must be just around the corner.
Praying for you!

Mandy said...

Em'y-
I know it's hard. And maybe I have no right to say anything since I didn't have to live at home for very long. But I reached a point of utter impatience in getting my house too. Kenton and I put offers on 2 houses before we took a break on looking.
When all was said and done, we got a house that met all of our needs both physically and emotionally. So, what I want to tell you is like everything else in your life . . . DON'T SETTLE!!! I know it's cliche but God will give you the desires of your heart. You know he knows what you want and you know you can trust him to give you above and beyond that.
If you haven't already, I encourage you to make a list of what you must have, what you can live with and what you absolutely CAN NOT live with in a house. It will help tremendously to keep you in check and not compromise on what you want.
I'm here if you need anything!

Emily said...

Mandy - I've already made a list, but you know what? In my price range there's no way I can be picky. ANYTHING is better than nothing right now. Seriously - I'm MORE than willing to settle. I'm not talking living in a dump, but I'm not planning on living in this home for long anyway. It's a step up, a step OUT, a step AWAY from where I am. And really... it's probably only a step. I don't know if God wants to provide me a house I can live in for the next 15 years or if He wants to provide a house I can live in for the next 2 - I DON'T CARE. I just want what HE provides. And right now? He's not providing anything except more time where I am.

Jenni said...

How frustrating to continually be forced to stay where you don't want to stay.